witty,cocky ( lolz),kick-ass-bitch-most of the time!( Babe In Total Control of Herself) sensitive ;-), domineering and manipulative {in a nice way ;-) } i tend to be a tedium "biatch" when i talk to a very pretentious , pompous person. i hate lame-intro lines, im more of a direct and get-to-the-point-person (lol!) some would see me with a strong character..most men & women i ran into said im pretty intimidating (hmmm) maybe they just have a weak personality ;-)
i take pleasure in reading books ( whenever i feel like being an "anti-social" ) i seldom rest nowadays, i can go for hours of drinking and chatting with most of my "friends".
enjoy erudite discussions as well...
most of the time, im temperamental...but i can be annoyingly sweet too...
got my heart broken plenty of times, so i guess with experience, I've learned to be shrewd!
what im ascertain of is that..MEN ARE POLYGAMOUS BY NATURE! if you find one that is honest enough - stick to it ( i used IT- because they are no good for other things apart from you-know-what =)
I AM a sum of paradoxes
Recklessly prudent
..lavishly Restrained
..Stubbornly submissive
..disdainfully Charming
..obedient Brat
..rationally Crazy
..insanely Cerebral
..Sophisticatedly naive
..inquisitive Believer
..unsurprisingly Idiosyncratic
..Haphazardly organized
..analytic Artist
..Romantically vigilant
..unyieldingly Sentimental
..indifferently Passionate
..Dramatically Hilarious
..sensitively bold
..tactfully Offensive
..Egoistic philanthropist
..domesticable Adventuress
..fearfully Courageous
..Barbarically prim
..liberally Conservative
..careful Free-Spirit
..approachable Snob
..boyish Fashionista
..Cleverly Faithful
..Vengefully forgiving
..prayerful Serendipper
..Blessedly Wicked
..Sensually poignant
..imaginatively Real ...
NEED I SAY MORE???
Interests
Arts, music , CARS!
Favorite Music
Green day... Bush...U2...Smashing Pumpkins... Cold Play... STP...Three Doors Down...
Favorite Movies
" When a man loves a Woman " "Story of Us" " Message in a bottle"
Favorite TV Shows
Providence!
Favorite Books
Man and Wife - Tony Parsons Shop-a-holic series - Sophie The Zahir- Paulo Coelho Women are from Venus, Men are from Hell - ;-)
Favorite Quote
" what the eyes doesn't see, the heart doesn't grieve over! "
I am writing this with the hope of not having to write the same piece ever again.
For over a year , I was disabled… in the sense that I was blinded. I could not see what is really in front of me. I have this ailment that I tend to see things the way I would want to see them, NOT for what they really are. Same illness that had led me crippled for quite sometime. But now I'm glad I'm cured ( or so i guess and hope for ).
This may seem a bit jargon for some. Or superficial for others. But what I'm really trying to say here is the same old story that some of my friends would just raise their eyebrow and say in unison " here we go again" .
As I enter another chapter of my life, as I say goodbye to another year, I came to know that the only way to cure oneself from any illness is mainly the will power and the belief that .. well, one can be cured.
It took me sometime to finally close that chapter of my life. Maybe because I am so scared that I might not be able to find blissfulness in others. I got used to it. I was a fool ( no matter how cliche this may sound ) to believe , that hey, maybe this could work out. That one day, IT might have the courage to really take the plunge. That we may finally live happily ever after. Again, wishful thinking.
I held on to IT.. quite strong that I ended up having all these blisters. But these blisters will also serve as a reminder that I should never ever commit the same mistake again.
Its tough moving on and starting all over again… but then again, this is not the first time that I get my heart broken, got blinded and been crippled. That although my whole being and totality screams otherwise, I should STOP being delusional and accept the truth and the reality in front of me.
I used to hate myself for loving that person more than life itself. That although I know for a fact that I deserve otherwise, I chose to stick and be glued to it. That although I know that there's no point nor future holding on to something more slippery than soap. I stayed. Convinced myself that maybe someday, just give it some time. If that’s not stupidity, feel free to correct me.
But those days are over. I am quite surprised myself. The longest I could stand being away from IT was like 2 weeks… now this call for a celebration. I 'm way pass over that. Salut!
Do I miss him? YES. Do I still love him? HECK YAH! But that’s about it. If I fall short of my vow, then it would be like eating the same crap I tried to get rid of… only much worse.
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